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May? Are you sure it was only 1 month?

MAY

It has only been the 5th month of 2020 and so much has happened already. And to think that I’m doing life alongside people I have never being in the same room at once. I’m also grateful for our leadership´s wisdom to guide us and identify how this cohort is different from others and set boundaries and guidelines on our communication until we are able to build in person relationship equity. 
Specially with all the opinions and perspectives around POC,  other’s intentions can and will be miss interpret really wrong and really fast. I know at least I was, I could already see how I was drifting from interacting with specific people due to their comments disguised as prayers, and it just wast not feeling good about it. I had to repent of passing judgment to people I don´t even know, not really anyways. 



    My heart truly pumps for “I Love This City” project,  since starting my internship I keep searching on how my personal ministry looks like within church (which is the whole reason behind joining). God keeps reminding me how he called me to missions since I was in middle school, and without realizing this, I am a missionary in MN, might not be the traditional definitions of missionary, but I’m definitely an outsider in a foreign  land. You know what is the oddest part of it, even though I do not have a lot of the things (cultural influences) that I grew up with, I feel part of a greater world, and not just part of a small community, I have found a place in the Latinx community like never before, is not a “us versus them” when it come to different countries. It has become a “we”. So now I have found places where my uniqueness is needed, like Manna Market, I wish my Spanish connect group would have had more attendance, but it is what it is and is not God’s time for that, so I’ll keep that in my back pocket for now, or maybe someone else will take it. Who knows, all I know is  I need to prioritize what God has given me, and for now, that looks like Manna Market, internship and any place in between. 



Sadly, I never fully grasped the concept of being a person of color until i moved to USA, but you know what, I have also never being so proud of my ethnicity, of my uniqueness within other cultures. And this has allowed me to see the uniqueness in my fellow interns. Having this skills has helped to see others with different opinions that me through a place of love, and not judgment. 
Definitely a growing curve.



2020 is the kind of year where you decide to grow or not. Part of me thinks growth is happening to everyone, weather we want it or no. So either we can embrace it and fully lean into it, or have it be painful like a ride on chicken bus through rural Guatemala where the roads are not paved and rocks are the size of a soccer ball (lol, jk, but really tho).



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